Krista Floyd

My childhood was a pretty ‘normal’ one. I grew up as the little chubby kid, who didn’t ‘thin’ out until close to the end of middle school. I was super shy. I felt like I never fit in with anyone. I didn’t feel accepted or seen. I had the core belief that I was not good enough as I am. I spent a majority of my life dealing with the aftermath of that core belief.

I know what it’s like to not love yourself. I know what it’s like to be so incredibly insecure. I know what it’s like to pretend. I know what it’s like to do/be only what you think other people want you to do/be. I know what it’s like to not know yourself. I know what it’s like to be anxious and severely depressed. I know what it’s like to want to end it all because living in your head is too much. I know what it’s like to try to cover a deep, open, gushing wound with pretty pink bandaids.

But now, I also know what it’s like to love yourself. To unlock your authentic self. To love your body and appreciate all that it is and does. To be the director of your own life, instead of others. To get to know yourself. To have freedom from the cage you’ve been in. To not give up on yourself.

Change can happen, and there is hope. It begins with a choice, a willingness to feel the pain, and the ability to persevere. It is by no means an easy path to take, but it is one that is so worth it. Since we are human, it is a journey that never ends. We will always have hurt, insecurities, and negative feelings because of our humanity, and that’s okay. Through self-awareness and understanding, it gets easier. You are worthy of experiencing this freedom, too.